with you for a 10th of a second. feels like forever. wish it would last

end it. You haven't even started.
Nothing to start with.
Can't find it, lost it.
Been dumb.
still am.
and what is lacking.
everything.
and why.
i let it slip away.
underneath this exterior, behind the smile,
is a puddle of tears and rotting flesh.
time stopped but not for me.