maybe fuck myself.

I thought I could.
I know it's bigger than all of this.
It's the now that leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.
I'm always waiting.
And when it comes, it's never what I'd hoped it to be.

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The moment when you feel like calling her so badly,
just to hear the familiar sound of her voice,
and you can hear her smoke her cigarette,
and picture every step, every detail,
her favorite lamp, the fan humming in the background,
the sound of traffic...
from the moment she takes a puff and how she exhales,
and every mannerism which you find both mildly amusing
and are enamored by.

That moment is now, and it's fleeting, and passing,
and it'll be gone soon,
and I can't do anything... but smile;
That I had precious, previous moments, with her.

Good night.

slumber

and I pray my love
to angels above
as you sleep this
night till dawn's early light,
for peace and smiles,
and warmth for miles,
from me to you and
yours to mine,

I'll sing a song
and before long,
asleep, your head
on my chest...
and if time would stop,
this moment I'll keep.

to hold you
tor a minute more...

i N u

I love how you see
the good things behind this broken shell
and how you keep telling me
it'll be alright
when I keep saying it isn't and it is,
most times, but you make me strong,
so I can make you strong,
and you push and prod me along,
I do the same,
and we stumble and trip
as we tread along the tracks,
not knowing where it is we're going.
And I love that we know what we want
and what to do and still fumble about it
and we fall and we fall
and we pick ourselves up
but there's still a mess
and you're here and that's good,
I wouldn't change that if I could,
the you being here part,
but the mess oh in a heartbeat I would.
I love...

thinkin

Just to know she's out there, thinking of you...
She'd give up everything just.

You.
I miss.
Many days and nights, spent without.
I wanna shout out,
let it all out.
With you.

Seriously

Miss you. Full stop.

boy

Held you.
felt you, there.
beside.
I'll take it all in stride,
and I can't let this slide.
I want more, but a trickle is all I can afford of you.
For now.

You remind me of how things are supposed to and should be.
How it all could be.
It's up to me.
Now.
Do I want you, us, as bad as you do?

an adventure, under a thin cover,
a starless, moonless night.
the wind grew cold and the night got old,
but we had each other, and it's all that mattered.

Two roller-coaster worthy days,
my mind will never erase.

we let down our guard;
you broke down my walls.
tears flowed freely,
I felt and acknowledged
what was deep within...
 inside of us both.

I miss your hand in mine.

hart

I'll be back in one piece.
Or I'll be back, at least.
X days away,
Don't worry love, I won't go astray.

You still linger about my senses,
in my head, on my skin;
And its gonna stay,
like me, in and around;
and about, you.

Spent a day,
we shared the bed,
on clear heads, not a drop of booze,
barely a snooze...

I bid you goodnight
and dearest, sleep tight.
I'll be on my way,
in more than a day,
but I'll come back to you
We'll have a smoke,
share a joke,
make a meal.
under hazy skies, who gives a fuck,
about the weather, make it rain Lord,
that'll be better.

night, love.